The children-including Jeremy-are completely captivated by the show. A man on tall stilts throws balls in the air and another man with painted white and black eyes plays the harmonica. “Mommy, look!” Jeremy exclaims, pointing at a mini passing circus.Ī few clowns walk by with large balloons in their hands. I wonder if I will find my old friend now. I want to go back to being the nobody on the streets, thinking about my next meal with Larry. I want to erase the day that I first met Adrian. I know all this is acting, but it’s getting tedious and I want out of this whole charade. “Go see your fucking comatose wife,” I mutter to the dead line as I release a harsh breath. “You do, but it’s more fun if you don’t.” “You’re already having a date with Jeremy. It’s when two people have one-on-one time together.” But I don’t say that, choosing to remain silent. “Yeah.” I glance at Jeremy, who’s now preoccupied with watching an army of ants disappearing behind the bench. I can imagine him sitting behind his desk and tapping his finger on the table. “Are you and Jeremy having fun?” His calm, sophisticated voice comes through. He doesn’t call me usually-but then again, usually he has me under his watch at home. It’s something more, and that’s what brought tears to my eyes this morning in the shower. I wish I wasn’t lusting after a married man. I wish there was a way to stop myself from having this reaction whenever Adrian is involved. Although I should feel disappointed that it’s not the shadow, my pulse skyrockets even more.
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